Well I'm not into writing blogs, I'm more into confiding in my friends...but my friends just can't help me with this one. So I'm looking for feedback from the lgbtq community 'cuz it's really something only we can understand.
I have a dilemma. I've defined myself as bisexual since high school...to keep my options open really... but i am much more strongly attracted to women. I love everything about a woman, her laugh, her touch, her body (i luv em all y'all!). I can't say the same for men, no offense to any guys (but c'mon seriously). One of my good guy friends, who knows that I'm bi, is making moves, real gentlemen-like, and for some time i thought (and still do think) that I could have something with him. but everytime i think about him, i think about her. i don't want to hurt him, i actually think that we would be good together (if i could get over the whole anatomy thing lol). So right now I feel like getting on the phone and telling him that it could work betwn for the two of us.
But! everytime i encounter people, or watch TV and see conservative ppl, or people who just have not been exposed to much diversity in their lives talk about homosexuality as something they wouldn't condone or just can't understand...i feel likedropping the bisexual label all together. I don't want to be part of anything traditional, cuz when it comes down to it, i dream of having a wife not a husband. I feel ashamed of calling myself bisexual sometimes, because even tho i have great understanding friends and even two of my other siblings are bisexual (my family is so gay) I just can't see myself committing to a hetero relationship (i'd just use the guy seriously).
What I'm trying to say is that some part of me does not believe in labels, but i cling to one...maybe to shield myself from something i know is tru about myself. I don't think that you're taking the easy way out if you're bisexual and u get with the opposite sex. i just think that in this day and age we need more gays and lesbians coming out for ppl to see that we are a sizeable amount of the population. if we show ambiguity are we harming ourselves (even though sexuality isn't our decision)? Or is it good that we can have perspectives from both sides of the fence (straight and gay)? The lgbtq community so much more complex that ppl think... it's our existance that's opening discussion about sexuality and queer studies in colleges.
So my question, back to my dilemma, is: Should I give this sweet guy a chance, or just admit i'm a lesbian?
(I'm usually not this serious!, but yeah i needed to get it out).
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